Hei, hei, alhamdulillah, the hardest assignment, peak of the semester which was presentation review article, at last,, DONE!!!!! Nervous tahap nak terberak sangat pun mampu tahan.. yes,, ni bukan gebang because on the same day time tu jugak la sakit perut.. apa ntah yang dah salah makan.. masalah jugak la bila nervous campur sakit perut.. Dah habis present elok pulak perut ny,, haishhhh,,,
Somehow, to reach this level,, especially this semester,, not that easy..
When you have very important, hardest, time consuming assignments,, time tu jugak la masalah bertimbun-timbun datang. One after another.
When the problem affect your work performance,, after weeks, hanya satu page of the article je dihantar and kena marah dengan supervisor especially when she said my review article was not interesting.. Rasa speechless.. Nak nangis (i mean dah nangis because of this). Tak tahu nak salahkan siapa sebab obviously that was my fault. As i mixed my personal problem with my work..
And because of this problem, i feel like i have problem with everyone. Either i hate everyone, or everyone hates me..
I just can't,, bila ada rasa tak suka dan benci dekat orang lain.. But somehow,, I tried my best to just forgive them.. and forget everything. yes, everything,,
BUT I CANT!
whoever yang pernah rasa like betrayed by someone yang dah kenal for a very long time,, will know how i felt.
Tengok gambar pun rasa tak mampu.
Bila teringat semula, rasa nak nangis, rasa marah, geram, benci,
Sakit.
Sakitnya masih disini.
But i dont like this feeling.
Aku pernah sakitkan hati orang sangat ke?
Then, when I made my decision,,
datang lagi orang yang hate me because of my decision..
I just dont know,, what i should do..
Thank you.
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